Melody Hidup: Move On

MOVE ON....appreciate your life...

~move on when you need to move on~

now i want to tell you a story...a story of my life....
everyone must has their own story..
either it's sad or happy story..its doesn't matter how this story influence that person because it was his/her life..no body can touch his/her life to the reason their are different..
like other, i also have my own stroy..the story that teach me to become who i'm today..the story that push me up and down..and the story that teach me the meaning of life..
and this is flash back of my story....
the story began when i was in the high school (form 3), like the other high school student, i also have my secret admire..even i know it was wrong but i can't avoid that because during that time everything its right in my eyes..
he is my classmate, the clever one and very respectable person..i doesn't know how can i like that guy..maybe because that guy have their own attraction that doesn't have in the other guy..hahaha..it's quick funny when i think back..immature thinker...
so, because of that i try to be the good one to caught his eyes but its not as easy as i think..he is passive person..sometime i think either he has a heart or not because he never talk with girl and he not like other guy..but i got the answer when i know how his child life is not like the other children..his parent is very straight person.they not allow him to be friends with other children because they worry their son will got influence by the bad thing. because of that, computer, game and so on is was his friends..
back to the story..
because of love people can do everything...people can kill because of love and people can dead because of love...but is not this type..hahaha..
for me, love can be good if we use its in the right way..so, because i like him, i try my best in my study and its work..i got number 1 in my class.so that mean i more clever than him lah..hihi..
because of that, i become more confident to be friend with him..i try to be friend with him..but its quick difficult because actually i never been close with any guys before that because this is how i has been teach by my lovely parent..
because of this reason, i never been close with him but i really hope that he can understood what i feel.
finally, all of us finish our study in the high school..after that i never meet him again until the time that ex-form 5 student really wait for..spm result has been announced..i meet him that time..he became the best student in my school when he got straight As in spm..while me only got the second place after him..its really worst..that time i got my strength to talk with him..yeah, i has talk to him but just to say congrat and it is the first time he give me positive response.
i'm really happy that time and because of that i never lose my hope...i keep my heart as close as i can..until i enter matriculation and universities, i never lose hope on him...
maybe for some people its quick crazy..waiting for someone that never guarantee for you for 5 years..
but i made its...the crazy thing in my life...
but, not all the thing that we plan will be same like God plan..
A few month before, i meet him after almost 2 years i doesn't meet him and after that i got know that him already have a girlfriend and they are planning to get marry soon..
its really hurt for me to accept its at the first but i keep my mind that God plan is the best...
so because of that...I do my best to MOVE ON from that thing..
move on from the thing that not give me any benefit and move on from someone that not good to someone that much better...at first its really hard to make the first step..but i push my self and move on to something that much better...
now i realize one thing that not all the thing that we plan will work like way we want...
the importance thing that we should do is MOVE ON when we failed and start the new story..